I wonder what could cause this feeling? I'm studying for finals and have never felt like this. Feels like a deep part of me is unhappy and unsatisfied. I think I have ADD but was never diagnosed. I was prescribed adderall for almost 2 years but stopped 2 years ago since my insurance ran out... but honestly for the past month I've been feeling pretty weird. I had strep or some form of throat thing that forced me in bed for several weeks and i was really tired and in a lot of pain, i ended up eating cannabis oil to curb the pain whenever I could, so i'm thinking it could be withdrawal from that, but i still smoke weed every day, just as i have been for 8 years.

any way getting something similar to mono could cause lasting psychological distress? isn't being sick that long technically a form of depression? maybe i have to get back in shape again... and am under a lot of pressure from exams. not sure.

also started doing 200-300mg caffeine doses twice a day or so (starting about a week ago) to wake me up because i'm exhausted and need to get work done. i can't tell if this feeling started after starting the caffeine or before but it came on at around the same time, i just don't know if taking the caffeine was a way to cope or if it caused this

All thoughts welcome as I fear for my own mental health.

as soon as exams are done (tomorrow) I'm going to taper down the caffeine and start doing regular exercise and meditation again. hopefully this helps, but to be honest as a psych student I'm just curious what you neuro guys think is going on with this unspecific craving. I just can't think of anything that would make me feel better right now. Nothing I can think of is enough, and I actually wonder whether this is how people start using heroin.

the cravings make me think of painkiller type things. i feel a general discomfort and diffculty settling in anywhere. it's frustrating and makes me kind of mad and feel like giving up. things that come up are hot sauce (which I am completely addicted to and probably eat way too much of) pizza (carbs), sugar, cannabis, sex, porn, socializing, dancing (oddly enough) and doing literally anything with my body that stops the discomfort. But none of it works for more than a few minutes. i'm never 100% comfortable. Have a long standing theory that I have an anandamide deficiency and that's what gave me so much trouble in highschool. for the record i only started smoking cannabis in late 12th grade, long after my socialization issues developed (which have been there literally as long as I can remember) and also after my achievement issues started in 6th grade (which oddly enough is when i started having an interest in girls... maybe not so odd since this is puberty... my grades dropped dramatically since then and they've been stable at Bs and Cs depending on whether or not i manage to secure a few precious minutes of concentration for the particular assignment). Hate to think this is related but a standardized IQ test revealed that I'm about 15 points above average a couple years ago. Also was supposed to skip 3rd grade but didn't due to changing schools. My profs tell me I'm one of the best writers they know and I'm continuously told I'm very smart, and I tend to believe it despite never being able to concentrate. My explanation is that I'm good at whatever I apply myself with. The difficulty is actually getting in that stable zone where that's even possible. I know intelligent people tend to do drugs, but I really don't think of myself that highly. Man, I am kind of fucked. Look at me go. I really should be writing an assignment. I'm just really really frustrated with myself because I know my potential but I can't even taste it right now.