I'm not new to the affair lifestyle and have elements of my life like shame/ guilt sorted out.

I'm looking for something truly special. I'm looking for an elusive connection where we both feel it in our souls. Where each moment together is electrifying and it becomes hard too breath because we're so excited to be together.

I've only met a handful of women in my life who have given me that feeling. When we lock eyes and we just know there's a magnetism that just can't be denied. It comes out in flirtation and intellectual banter.

Someone who in another life, I could have chosen to be more than an AP. Something serious. Something... forever?

This elusive woman has come in different forms. Different hair lengths. different hair colors, different body shapes and sizes.... but here's what I've gathered they've had in common:

Attractive face: I want to get lost in each other's eyes where we can't stop smiling at each other because we're so excited for what we've found. Long hair tends to be a bonus for me.

Intelligence: I'm a science nerd and it helps if you are too. I'm open to people passionate about other things, but intelligent, witty banter is a must.

Girl next door type: She's pretty without having to try. She isn't super model and looks just as good in pajama pants as a little black dress.

Knows music: Sings, plays instruments, or the like. I want to duet in life and in song. I love singing to and being sung to by my beloved.

Open minded/ non-judgmental/ thoughtful- I'm strongly opinionated, but I'm always curious to know people's stories. I don't need you to agree with me or share values, but if we can't respectfully discuss hot button issues (not that it will happen all the time), we probably won't get along.

What you get:

Physically: tall, shaved head, beard, thin to average build, grey blue eyes and a smile that forbodes my passion, excitement, and mischief

Intelligence: Well educated, scientist and philosopher, seeker of the truth and enlightenment

Emotional intelligence: Can listen to/ hold all the feelings from anxiety, fear, anger, desire, and even limerence/ love. Knows how to validate and that I don't need to fix your problems but just listen.

Passion: I'm passionate about many things and it comes out in how I interact with my partner. I want to pour my passion into her and make her body feel things no one else has. I'm reasonably confident I can too.

I hope I can find you in St. Louis!