I’m not really 100% sure what I’m looking for, but I know that I’ve tried to find it in the past and haven’t found it yet, so I guess here goes nothing.

I have been in a relationship with my wife for 11 years. We started dating in high school, and she is all I’ve ever known - My first everything, the only serious partner I’ve ever had, the only woman I’ve ever had sex with, the whole deal.

I guess what I’m really craving is diversity. She obviously has played an irreplaceable role in my life - It’s hard to imagine where I might be today without her, and I do care for her deeply. However, part of me wonders if we would still forge a relationship if we met for the first time today. We’re pretty different people. I suppose opposites do attract to some extent, and we agree on the important stuff, but I’ve gotten a lot more self-confident as I’ve grown older, and sometimes I wonder if I would pick fights now that I wouldn’t pick in the past.

I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t at least primarily looking for something sexual. Our sex life is decent, I guess, but leaves things to be desired. She’s very traditional - we didn’t have sex until we got married, which was her request. I love getting blowjobs, I never get blowjobs anymore. We do the same 2-3 positions. We don’t really do anything kinky. I very much want to experience what it’s like to be with another woman and broaden my horizons. I know that makes me just like every other guy on here, but it would also be unfair for me to not be honest, and yeah, that’s what I want.

I also want someone I can talk to openly. I made a decision to leave a job that I loved last year, very much at her request. I need to talk about it and really process it, but I can’t talk about it with her, and I can’t a therapist. It would be nice to have someone I can just vent to from time to time.

This is getting long, so I’ll try to wrap it up. Looking to start online and chat there until we both get more comfortable. Happy to go over more details in my DMs. Thanks for listening.