I have less than 70 days until I graduate, yet I have no set plan for after graduation- this isn’t because of me though. I am a very determined, hardworking, intelligent student, but I’m not receiving any support in my college journey. I’ve received serval acceptances to different colleges and won multiple scholarships, yet my mother can care less. I want to commit to my top choice school, but my toxic mother didn’t seem to express interest when I told her. How will I go about these next couple of months registering for orientation, moving in to my dorm, and paying for tuition with no parental figure to help out?!?

Since a young age, I’ve realized the best way for me to grow as a person is to get far away from what’s holding me back; in this case, it’s my mother. I’ve always wanted to go out of state then I realized I would be covering most of the financials so in-state it was for me. So I decided on a school that’s 2 hours from my family as it’s the best option(and furthest within budget). My toxic mother hasn’t been any support throughout this college application process and it’s hard for me as a first generation college student learning everything. The one thing my mother did tell me regarding college is to go somewhere that’s 10 minutes away from my house just because she saw something about it in the mail. She doesn’t want me to go too far from her.

As the months come closer to high school graduation and deciding on a college, the more my fear of her keeping me close to her kicks in. Has anyone else experienced this when getting ready for college? Any advice on how I can make this whole college thing workout?