I’m scared. I don’t know the severity of the narcissism. I hurt people. I’m unemployed. I’m afraid of going back to work. I believe the work will conflict with my inflated self-image. The doctor told me to focus on 4 things: hobbies, interests, work and relationships. I hope I listen to him. I’m waiting to start therapy. Does anyone with this disorder have any advice to make my recovery easier or possible? Do you have a book recommendation? I might read ‘A Picture of Dorian Gray’. I heard it’s good.

I also want to add that I’m taking this seriously. I don’t think narcissism is a good thing or another way for attention. I believe it ruins my life, my relationships and other people’s lives.

I’ll also add that I have suicidal ideation and have come close to killing myself.