Hello all For a bit of background, i am a self aware covert narcissist with aspd traits. I dont have a lot of emotions but what i do is very deep and i feel it entirely. Im either non reactive or im all the way in my feelings, no real middle ground. Growing up i was raised by a narcissist who hated the fact that she was a narcissist. She basically raised me to be a pushover and afraid of conflict so now i just constantly fear getting into fights, its like a pit in my stomach. I know this is because of nurturing though because my gut instincts are always telling me something different than what my actions end up being. I am currently living in a position where i have no privacy, constantly berated and harassed by people im supposed to consider family. She has already passed my point of tolerance and will be forcibly removed at the earliest convenience. My question: Has anyone had a narcissistic collapse? I believe im on the verge of having one and wanted to know what is the active experience while having it. I am at a point where i genuinely am concerned im going to have a break and go into my full blown narcissistic personality. I have been trying to avoid that because i know that with that will come isolation which day by day im becoming more and more ok with the idea.