Hi. It seems I have totally failed my hero's journey due to my many inner impurities. I believe in God and I wanted to begin to explore Hinduism, I started off by reading Bhagavad-Gita, and as you know Arjuna is a hero who is loved by Krishna. I am so far from being a hero/ine, and I cannot relate to Arjuna at all. I feel not worthy to become a Hinduist or anything else.

What can I do in this case? How to choose a religion/philosophy and which is a neutral religion to explore?I know I have been a hedonist all my life, so please don't advice me to explore it.

Maybe I am so imperfect, with so many flaws that I am not accepted by God and Nature and don't get me wrong I don't beg for anything, I just want to get an objective opinion as I am still alive.