Today my partner and I both had the day off and kinda spontaneously decided to go clothes shopping, mostly for her. She only does girl mode at home so we kind of had to be sneaky and it was sort of fun. We got home and she tried her new stuff on and she honestly looked amazing.

About an hour later we were laying in bed and she was wearing this new minidress and she looked so cute, I kissed her and complimented her and basically started initiating sex, which she was REALLY into for all of about 5 minutes. Then it happened... she told me to stop, and kind of curled into a ball and basically shut down and refused to talk to me for a half hour. After which she told me that basically me complimenting her and telling her she looked sexy and beautiful was all just a painful reminder of what she doesn't have.

This isn't the first time it's happened, where intense gender euphoria is followed by intense gender dysphoria. She was blushing and squirming one minute and utterly inconsolable the next. I feel terrible, but the thing is, she does genuinely enjoy the compliments and attention most of the time, and of course it is sincerely meant. I just never know what's going to tip things in the wrong direction. Sex especially seems fraught with emotional highs and lows these days.