I feel like I’m here posting every day since my partner came out to me (cis F). Now the issue is that I was having a bit of an off day already and then she mentioned makeup techniques. When I responded not super enthusiastically, she asked what was wrong. I asked her if she wanted honesty, even if the truth wasn’t great. She said of course and she just wanted me to be happy.

Well. I told her that I have a love/hate relationship with femininity and that sometimes I wish I had never even gotten into makeup and that sometimes I don’t feel like I can be enthusiastic with her about those things. I told her that womanhood hasn’t been fun for me and I don’t hold fond memories about it and I’m struggling with all that. She said that my thoughts were making her uncomfortable and that she could “sense my discomfort and it made her feel disgusting.”

I’m at a loss here. She says she wants honesty and then this is how she reacts? I’ve already felt bad enough on my own and I’ve been doing my best to process everything and still be her partner.

I’m mostly just angry now.