So back to the first part I posted about me being confused about my feelings. So like I said I’m talking to a guy who’s trans (ftm). Recently he said he wanted to meet me in person and I’m all for it, we’ve been talking for a week almost 2 I thought it was early but it also seems like a good idea? We both just got out of relationships and we wanted to take it slow and get to know each other. We have discussed promise rings but we didn’t want to go through with it until 6 months of dating. We don’t label our relationship as bf and gf we just say we’re talking and I’m fine with it but we also discussed we both wanted to say the L word (we stuck with just saying I “like” you a lot instead of saying I love you). Everything has been going well but my ex doesn’t seem to like the idea of me being in a relationship with someone else. My ex and I broke up after our 6 month anniversary when I found out about him cheating On me with a girl he was talking to before we officially started dating. I told my current interest this and he said I should just tell him I found someone better and I did but I explained it was because he doesn’t lie to me and my ex said he couldn’t compete with him.

Lately we’ve been doing the usual like calling each other baby and all that. But one thing we’ve never discussed is long distance dating. He’s a two hour drive from me and we have the same birthday week so I wanted to surprise him for his birthday.

I’ve been wanting to express to him that I’m scared of dating again because my last relationship really fucked me up and it caused my trust issues to get worse than before. I do trust him and he hasn’t done anything for me to question that trust. We both mutually will text the other and express we miss each other. I’ve gone as far as making sure to send him good morning texts. I explained some of my concerns like I’m a thicker girl and he’s a more petit guy and I know people judge but idc. My biggest concern is the fact we’d be an interracial couple and that’s not looked down upon in a good way.

I don’t know how to explain to him my feelings without scaring him off. ;-;