Hi, my first post here, and I frankly have a lot of things to talk about, considering what others have told me regarding my stance on having mental issues at all.

To preface, I have been banned on a server which I was told, was due to me hitting on someone's girlfriend which I wasn't even aware of. And due to that event, I spiraled out of control and took it out on the guy who told that to me, as I developed the mentality of "Then I guess everyone has to have a girlfriend, just to avoid talking to me. Because then if I talk to anyone, they can report me for hitting on them, because any interactions that have anything to do with me would've been considered as harassment! That's just great!"

Since then, I'm afraid to talk about anything regarding romance, because I will be reminded of that incident. And no matter how I try to avoid discussions about it, someone would bound to mention a topic regarding romance and I will be reminded about how no one wants me. And maybe that's true; maybe no one wants me because of how much of an emotional wreck I am. And I can't even love myself because of my household always kicks me down, saying that everything I say and do are wrong.

This might sound like a very generic post that could've been fitting for other subreddits, but since I live in malaysia, I think the issue is exacerbated due to the lack of care regarding mental health in here in general.

This won't be my only post in the coming hours. I hope this won't be taken down due to some people's assumption of this account's association with some other people.