I fantasize every night about blowing my brains out and ending it all. I can't do it because of my wife, mostly. She's a wonderful person and loves me so much. I just couldn't do that to her.

But, then the loneliness comes on. The negatives start to outweigh the positives. I am so goddamn alone on the inside. I can't hear a soul call back to me from any direction.

My "friends" don't give a shit about me. I have an extensive resume of failed endeavors. I've gained a lot of weight. My relentless ambition gets more and more relenting every day. I'm over 30 years old and still working shit jobs to pay the bills. I just want to die.

This isn't a call for attention. I'm so exhausted. Every breath is extraneous. Everything pisses me off. Humanity lets me down every day. The planet is dying. The evil people are getting richer.

Please, somebody say something that will make me want to wake up tomorrow.