My wife and I met each other when we were young, we were pretty much high school sweethearts. We got married at around 18-20 years old, so we’ve been married for over 10 years now and have 3 beautiful daughters. She didn’t have an issue with porn until we got married and said she doesn’t want that stuff around HER marriage. We’ve gone through marriage counseling multiple times and I’ve even gone through individual counseling to work through my issues. Every time we go through counseling, she’ll said that the only reason why we’re here because of my pornography problem.

Before I go into any deeper, I had been exposed to it at a very young age, maybe 7 years old or younger. My wife calls my family messed up or corrupted for exposing me to it. I don’t blame them for what happened and I want to move forward on being my best self. I asked her to work with me through it but she only wants me to quit cold turkey and that I’m on my own on figuring it out. It feels very lonely and sometimes I would relapse. She gave me the ultimatum many times that if I can’t quit it, I have to leave my family. This stresses me out even more and makes it even easier to fall back into relapsing.

It bothers me that she sees pornography = child predators (I would never do anything to children!). My wife had also said that it’s not fair that I’m fantasizing about other people and this should give her the opportunity to seek out REAL relationships either physical or emotional. The list goes on about how horrible I am for watching it.

How do I even move forward? I’m thinking that maybe it’s time to move on.