As my addiction to anabolic steroids progressed, I began to experience more and more side effects. I found myself constantly researching ways to combat these side effects, but the only solution that seemed to work was taking more drugs. I was taking medications to regulate my blood pressure, manage my cholesterol levels, keep my hair intact, and treat my acne. It was a never-ending cycle, and it had become my new normal.Looking back on this time in my life now, it sounds crazy to me. But at the time, it was just how I lived day-to-day. The steroids had caused me to gain a significant amount of weight, and I developed severe sleep apnea as a result. I was choking in my sleep at night because of my weight, and I began to notice that I was becoming more easily agitated and short-tempered with others. All I cared about was getting to the gym and taking my drugs. I had created an identity for myself that revolved around my appearance and my addiction. From the outside, I probably looked like a mean, insecure asshole. In reality, that's probably what I was at the time. My responsibilities felt low, and I had no interest in anything other than the gym and the drugs I was taking.