Edit: forgot to mention I'm 22 male

Everytime I scroll through this subreddit it just makes me feel down. I have had a liking for mommy dom stuff for a while now and I know I should be patient and I'll find a mommy eventually but I'm starting to get very impatient. Now on the other hand it's not like I ever leave my house nowadays or meet people online. School has been kicking my ass for a while now and it's all I have time for anymore so that has my priority. regardless I still find myself masturbating nightly (Mommy dom stuff for me is mostly a sexual thing) but every time I finish I just feel down because I still don't have a mommy. I know I'm just being impatient and selfish. I guess I'm just wondering, does anyone else get like this? Like just have months at a time where you don't really get depressed but just feel down sometime not having a mommy? In my case I already know I don't live in a good area for finding a mommy irl (Gig Harbor, Washington State) and covid really screwed me over for finding a job but IDK I just wish it wasn't so hard to find a mommy I guess. Anyway I just needed to vent, sorry for the long and probably pointless post.