Someone said something about expectations and I can't help but loop this is my head. They were basically talking about conventional expectations from men and how that makes me unattractive or unlovable. I'm paraphrasing ofc but that's the centre of it. Discussions like that usually don't bother me much and I keep on with my day. But I feel like today something broke in me.

Even tho I know logically that I'm deserving of love, today I feel like I'm unworthy of it. I've been tearing up, has happened multiple times today , happening as I type this. I feel like I don't belong in this world, all because I'm a sub and relatively feminine and can't give what's conventionally expected of men. That and other things.

I feel the weight of it all slowly crushing me. Maybe today is just one of the breaking points. All I want is to be loved , that too feels like asking for too much. I wish I could find my person already. Sorry if this post doesn't belong here but I didn't know where else to go. I wonder if anyone else can relate or even have any sucess stories or anything that could help ease me a little.