I've always been super awkward around other people. I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome when I was younger and that always made being social very difficult for me. Its been hard for me to form meaningful relationships with other people, and the idea of a romantic relationship almost seems off the table entirely, despite how much I've always wanted one. I've always wanted that sense of closeness, of warmth and compassion that I could share with someone, but the mere thought of opening myself up to someone in the real world seems terrifying to me.

Another problem that I've had is that I'm a very large man. I'm 27, 6'4" (193.04 cm) and about 260 pounds (117.934 kilograms). I have broad shoulders and I've been told that I have an almost intimidating presence. Because of this, I've always been seen as this super masculine man that must love playing football and lifting weights, but I've never felt comfortable in that kind of role. I've never felt the urge to be this dominant and aggressive person, but I feel like I've been forced into that role for a very long time now.

Maybe its a combination of not quite being comfortable with myself and not really knowing how to approach cute girls and ask them out, but it feels more and more apparent to me that I want a dominant woman in my life. Maybe not in a completely dominating way, but for a girl to make the first move in a way that I'll actually understand. I've been approached by girls in the past who were clearly interested in me, but I didn't know that they were flirting with me until maybe hours later and by then, they were gone and I wouldn't have that chance again.

I think I need a mommy because what I've wanted so much is for a loving woman to tell me that she thinks I'm cute and that she'd love to take me out sometime. I want a beautiful woman who I can hold in my arms and make me feel safe. A woman who I can truly be my submissive self with, without having to worry if she'll think I'm too weird or too masculine. A woman who loves me for who I am, and not what I am.

I'm sorry if this all so sappy, but I love forward women who know what they want. I want to love a woman who knows how to make the first move. A woman who isn't afraid to be dominant with me.