Hi everyone! I recently got out of a long-term relationship in part because our libido didn't match up, but additionally because I've realize I don't want to be a Dom and have always just filled the role because im a caretaker at heart. I've always taken care of my parents so it comes naturally to me, but the few times I've been able to be submissive in my life have been unlike anything else. In this exploration I discovered I LOVE pain. Whether impact play, wax play, temperature play, biting, or choking, it does something to me that I have hardly ever experienced before.

I've always been a little and have had several nonsexual caregiver partners in the past, but was curious as to how often you see sadistic mommies? It feels like a bit of an oxymoron considering a mommy is typically someone caring, loving and kind (although there's obviously 7 billion people on this earth and I'm sure there's a sadistic mommy out there somewhere), but I'm just hoping to get an idea of what I should start compromising on? Should I just look for a sadistic Dom or just a mommy etc?

Thanks!

Much love ❤️