I think im too idealistic???

I always come up with scenes in my head unlikely to play out.

Ive mentioned elsewhere that i have the stature and bearing of a linebacker yet inside i want nothing more than to be the little spoon. The receiver. The plaything. The loved.

I have a yearning for this sort of thing im starting to learn…ing

I have scenes in my head that involve staying the night in a different room. Wanting you but putting myself to sleep. To be woken up with a light breakfast and you on the end of the bed patting the duvet down. And then it starts. You had to get my energy up. Im going to need it.

Ive always had these ideas floating around but i wanted to add a mommy dynamic. A softer persuasion. Kinder even. Not that extra gentle femdom ISNT kind. Mommies, i think, reading through everyone’s posts, are more intimate.

They’re more core fashioned, crux-love. Closer to home and heart.

No im not putting a call out. But the longing is starting to hurt. Having always been the dom,and having been dominated in stringless one-offs.. i feel like im turning into a bit of a husk.

How do i approach this need if my appearance and outward personality is stoic and focus? Im always approaches by ‘bad girls wanting a daddy to breed them’. But i need this aspect of me to be recognised, ridiculed if brought up. Funny how people say ‘all you have to do is decide’. Well i decided. And its been nothing but being taken advantage of since.

Mommy dom or femdom fantasies and writing are all i ever really write about now. But like i said, maybe im too idealistic in thinking that the warmth and soft hands and caressing voice is a bit too in the clouds…

Where to?