Might be just rambling aimlessly... sorry in advance...

I have not been in a good spot... I lack emotional support system being raised a boy somewhat old fashion way My social circle is mainly just gaming guys and I do not feel comfortable talking about personal stuff My daily schedule puts me like a couple hours off what normal people do and hence less chance to meet other people, let alone potential dates I know I have some issues needing professional help but I do not get paid much to afford that either nor do I feel like I am in an environment that helps me heal So I mainly cope with stuff like mommy dom but it eventually puts too much pressure on them and decided that I am not worth it And then this makes me even more insecure and desperate and it all happens again...

thanks in advance for those that took the time and reach out to me...