So I have made several posts about my background as well as a photo of myself. My mother is 3/4 Polish and 1/4 Syrian and my father is full Italian both Northern and Southern.

I will admit that instead of Syrian I have lied and told people I was Lebanese because of the racism that Syrians face but like I have also said before I don’t really receive racism. Prejudice maybe, but not true racism. (being called names, being rejected a job).

I do feel though that I am less attractive because of my ethnic mix and for some reason think if I was whiter I’d be more ideal. I think it’s because I grew up in Michigan where most people I went to school with were white so I have a preference for white guys. I look at them and think I would be more attractive if I looked like a white college jock.

Most people guess I am Middle Eastern by default (at least once a week with asking). I do have people think I am Italian or something else but mostly it’s Middle Eastern.

I have a lot of self esteem issues because of this and it goes up and down. I think everyday about it but some days are better than others.

Does anyone else feel this?