It is really, unnaturally unfair, sometimes, what life throws at you. Retinitis pigmentosa and misphonia, severe tinnitus. I have extremely provocative neighbors who run their water constantly (wet noises are one of my main irritants - wet noises and mouth noises), and it makes me insane. I can't ever escape them. Constant water. They run their tub - and I'm not exaggerating - at least 4-5 hours broken up during the day. As soon as I think I'm falling asleep, water running. No amount of music helps. I fixate. The noise makes me so insane I feel physically ill, and get the most awkward involuntary rage stimulation. I hate it. I hate them more than I have ever hated anyone before.

Uuuuugh. I really just wish I could swap my eyes and ears. Silence would be amazing. I haven't heard silence in over a decade. Always tinnitus or irritants.

One of these days, I'm going to fucking explode.