Fem/anatomically correct terms only, no pregnancy/breeding, post top

Whenever I get really horny I put my clit sucker between a pillow at the side of the bed and pretend to hump into it like I have a dick. I'll grab onto the sides of the pillow and pretend I'm fucking up into a pussy. In actuality, my clit is too tiny and also too sensitive to even really fuck into the tiny clit sucker. Instead I'm just humping my clit hood into it over and over and it's sucking and vibrating the spot right above my actual clit.

It feels so good though and I can almost pretend I'm a man when I'm doing it until I cum and feel my cunt clench and drip all over the towel below me. Sometimes I crave the attention so bad I'll go on dirtyroulette or something and have the camera below me recording my ass and pussy "fucking" into it. If I'm really craving humiliation I'll even use clothespins to spread my pussy. It's so humiliating to know that they don't even know I'm trans. They don't even know I'm desperately trying to pretend I don't feel how open and exposed my pussy hole is, how I know they can see me clenching and dripping. Even worse they can hear me grunting so pitifully, and it's not even deep enough to make them think it might be a trans guy.

I've uploaded some videos of when I cum and in my head I'm pretending I'm cumming deep inside. It's so humiliating to watch back... They are on my red gifs profile. If you watch them... Please tell me how ugly and humiliating it was. My dms are open but pls check my kinks and limits first.

Yes:CNC/forced/rape, inspection/medical, exposure, humiliation, No:pregnancy/breeding, pee/watersports, affectionate terms/language