Living life currently as a pre op trans woman, but can’t shake wanting to detransition for/with a partner.

Currently live and present very feminine but the thought of being masculine and muscular gives me complete euphoria.

Would love to find someone to “force” me onto testosterone and/or steroids, have my implants removed and make me work out until my body is one that other men would be jealous of. Maybe make me grow a beard, give them total control of what my results would be in the end.

I doubt there is anyone out there who would seriously want to create a boyfriend from a mtf in that way, but it would be nice to find. I think mixing this desire with a bit of kink would be fun though.