TLDR- Fresh air and sunshine heals all disease

-is arguing with me because I woke up at almost 2pm-

Me- I wasn’t feeling well last night, my head hurt so much.

Her- That’s because you never go out to get sunlight and fresh air.

FYI yesterday was one of those days where the weather is over cast and the sun is suddenly more painful

Me- It’s hurting because I went outside yesterday... (went for a short walk to pick up a couple stuff from the grocery)

Her- You’re conditioning your mind to believe that the sun would make your head hurt.

Me- Umm... no, that’s literally what migraines do. I’m especially sensitive to light. I didn’t condition my mind to think that, it’s a pattern I picked up on.

Her- You only know to do a whole set of research to make your body feel pain. That’s not normal.

Me- That’s not how it works. I know that it’s not normal, that’s kind of the point?

Her- If you listen to me you wouldn’t be living with this pain. God makes things for a reason. (cough cough even all the diseases in the world, migraines included) The sun helps. Morning sunshine is the most healing, not this hot afternoon sun. You need to exercise outside, not in your room (Keep in mind her voice is raised during this little argument)

Me- That’s... not how it works. I’m aware of morning sun and it still causes pain. The weather wasn’t nice yesterday so it wasn’t ideal for me to be outside. And I’ve tried exercise, it doesn’t work for me. (I still exercise but lightly. Through experimentation I found ones that work for me best)

Her- You think you know everything. (It’s not like I’m the one living with it or anything 🤷🏽‍♀️) I know that sun and fresh air would do a world of wonders for you but you never listen.

Me- That’s not how it works. And of course I know, it’s my pain. I know what I should to to make it better and fresh air and sun isn’t it.

Her- (she starts to shout) FOOL, this is WHY you’re always in pain. That’s abnormal (it’s a disease that literally what diseases do...) you’re not supposed to be like this. I know best and I KNOW that what I’M TELLING YOU would work

Me- Okay mommy, okay. (all this time I’m speaking at a reasonable tone while sitting on the toilet as she stands outside the door)

Her- FINE, if you choose to live your life like this, then so be it. I have nothing more to tell you. You’re stubborn and never listen to my advice.

Me- (muttering under my breath) That’s not how it works... I didn’t choose to live like this. I don’t want to live like this.

Her- You know what? I’m done. (She leaves and goes to shout at some other thing)

I literally can’t even with her. She makes no sense. I’m the one living with this stupid illness not her. I’m the one in the pain. I’m the one who’s aware of how this all works. Not because I’m conditioning myself, but because I don’t want to live with something and not know the reason why it happens. Why can’t she do the same research she does to learn about the all mighty sun to find out about how migraines work? If the solution to curing this was that simple then I’d have taken it a long time ago. I hate it here😔