So I started using in 2017 after I got into an accident .. about to months ago I just stopped using.. the first 3 weeks we're the hardest but after that I started getting the motivation to do things and just started feeling better... Last week I picked up a half a ball and felt guilty but still smoked.. yesterday I got the same thing but I really don't want to smoke... I don't have the urge to or even want too. When I go to smoke it's almost like I feel like I gotta force myself to ... Which is a good thing kind of... I really don't want to got back on it anyways but I'm stuck with this bag... I almost fell like just flushing down the toilet it something.. I just feel guilty if I start using again.. like why go this far just to fuck it up.... I don't want to go through those couple of days after stopping where your whole body is just sore and you just want to stay in bed all day and sleep ya know??.. anyways just needed to vent about it to someone... Anyone in socal want a bag??? No bullshit . I'm really thinking about dumping it down the toilet ...

Anyways sorry guys... How you all have a good day and stay safe. ✌️✌️✌️