JOURNAL. Journal to communicate with yourself. Human memory is weak. Habitual use can degrade memory in significant quantities. You have to, please I can't stress this enough.

If the title is pertinent to you and you WANT to be functional, I will share some survival essentials. This is not an endorsement. The word survival should be warning enough; Put the rose tinted lens away. This guide is for the addicts in the thrall, not the addict in the making. Slow experimentation/integration is key. Change is slow. Accept it.

Let me make something abundantly clear-

You are not a special.

This is progressive, naturally downward unless you make the tremendous effort to reverse that momentum. You cannot be complacent, chances are you will lose control.

The Major Components of Functional Meth Use (roughly in order) Are:

2.Nutrition/Sleep 3.Mindset 4.Routine 5.ROA/dosing

GOLDEN RULE is 1. CONSISTENCY

If you are struggling in every aspect that is completely ok. Don't overwhelm yourself. Take one tiny little thing and apply it consistently until it's in your routine. This all ties together. Some things will be hard or unnatural. Take it slow, JOURNAL. Everyday. Everything. Every dose, your diet, water intake, sleep quality/amount, morning mood. This is so incredibly important, I can't stress it enough. Observing and meaningfully changing your life is impossible with memory alone. This is the foundation to EVERYTHING you will build.

1. Nutrition/Sleep

Sleep every night, figure out when you need to stop dosing to do that. Without benzos. BENZOS ARE EMERGENCIES ONLY. No alcohol either. Discipline yourself and your brain will learn when you want it to Sleep. Only sleep in your bed, your brain will adapt and help you over time. If possible, at the same time every night.

I will be brief, there is an abundance of easily accessible supplement guides. That is not to say this isn't important. Do your homework when you're ready. Figure out a diet, watch your journal change. Adjust as you equate negatives to their causes. This is vital, it will change your life if you put the effort into it. SLOWLY. Consistently. Routinely. Getting it now?

1. Mindset

It's hard. Changes in other fundamentals can help you improve how you process your life. There are so many factors. Short answer, if you can get a therapist consider setting an appointment. Not necessarily to stop using drugs. You are valuable. Your actions do not define you. Change is possible. Do better, feel better, be better. I'm being general here because specifics would be a nightmare to read or write. Take some time to think about yourself and process your emotions. Have I mentioned JOURNALING????

1. Routine

Incremental changes are difficult for addicts or chemically dependants. Vitamins don't give you instant gratification. Alot of things that are incredibly important to your survival are not exciting or fun. Do them anyway. Routinely. Develop habits that help you maintain that routine. Sleeping better makes your doses better makes your days better makes your life better. Only if you do it consistently.

1. ROA/Dose

First of all, figure out a hard cut off so you can sleep. Think of dosing as both concurrent and consecutive. Each redose adds a little to the length. Can't give you exacts, your body and what you're doing will change everything.

You have your own tolerance and brain chemistry, I can't help you directly here. Try to think about the bigger picture here. Think about your use as a whole. There are 2 tanks when you use. One you fill up (CNS Stimulation). This is a massive tank, you can almost endlessly fill. It's what causes all the negative side effects. The other tank you draw from. If you overdraw, you get some fumes but the tank shrinks.

This becomes the obsession, the dopamine tank. In that obsession you fail to comprehend that every little thing you neglect is how you refuel.

Bringing it all together, we get the full picture. We change the obsession from the drug to ourselves. The journal is you, you're building a new, better you. Me and you both know that abstinence is the better option. It's just not the one we chose. You're always going to be an addict. Change the addiction to yourself.

Edit: I destroyed my life in a matter of 11 days. I thought I could be under control, how I was wrong. I'm done. Good luck everyone. I'm starting a new life, without drugs.