I am user of 4 years. I love meth its better than any of the other drugs ive had, it doesnt make me paranoid like coke does, nor does it make me feel like my heart is going to explode out of my chest. It makes me think straight and gives me energy to get shit done, but the drug has seemed to flipped on me. Now i just like to blow clouds and play video games and have sex. Im mad horny 24/7 which is why i also love the drug but im starting to push my responsibilities off. Im not seeing my daughter, im not wanting to work. I dont know if its normal or if my dope can be cut with fentanyl but im tired of waking feeling tired and my bones aching. Ive taken breaks but i cam seem to go longer than 4 months sober and im seriously starting to get depressed and hating myself for letting myself push myself away from my daughter. Im so lossed with out a happy ending in sight idk know what to do anymore. Please tell me im not the only one that i will get pass this okay or am i doomed forever???