My psychosis has been a lot worse since i’ve been using almost everyday but things in my town have changed almost overnight, context i live on a native reservation with little or no police presence, i could go an entire day without seeing one cop, on a normal day one or two. there’s been a lot of gun violence in the past couple months from the youth to the point, they’ve now mandated a curfew at 10 pm, all 24 hour stores now close then and no one under 18 is allowed to be out on the streets. even with the curfew i’ve still gone out, got my shit and came home but once trump started the ice raids, 3 or 4 days ago the cops have been on almost every corner of every street. normally anything that’s a felony and obviously gets dealt with by federal agents so the feds plus tribal police have been roaming the streets pulling over anyone for every little thing. i’ve been high and paranoid long enough in the place i live to know what every light outside my window is for and where it’s coming from. my dogs are acting weirder than usual because every other dog in town has been non stop barking all night. everytime i keep opening the door to left them out there are what seem to be flashlights across this field that are turning off and on and getting brighter and dimmer non consistently while i’m letting the dogs out to potty and keep them from standing at the door barking, for a little bit while waiting i turned on mine while the one across the field did just to fuck wit it and play a lil game wondering wtf it is now everytime i open the door for the dogs the light gets brighter, it was never there before but now i’m kinda scared these mfs are watching my house or the neighborhood because there’s also some unexpected brighter than star lights in the sky reflecting off my window like the street lamps are so are these mfs sending out drones too? like what the actual fuck.