TLDR started using meth willingly a few days ago. It feels amazing. No flashbacks to my teenage years when I was being dosed without my knowledge. I'm calm (adhd). And I am not hearing or seeing the things I've hallucinated since child hood. I'm going to attempt to take a break for the next few days.

Long version

So I've been snorting meth for about 4 days now. Got a pipe today and started smoking it.

Last time I tried it was like 5 or 6 years ago. It gave me flashbacks to my teenage years due to being dosed with it by my father.

This time no flash backs. I'm calm. I also find it easier to sleep.

I made sure one of my friends knows what I am doing so she can occasionally check on me.

I like the relaxed feeling I have. My body gets warm and fuzzy and my brain feels fizzy. It's nice. I'm relaxing listening to music. And I can understand my own thoughts now.

I also did a lot of research before I started. I'm making sure to eat and drink plenty of water and some electrolytes. I'm going to take another hit brush my teeth. And maybe go to bed and listen to the radio.

Oh also I can't hear any of the voices I ussually hear. My brain is very quiet.

Thankyou for reading this.