I am 18 and I recently got into meth I did a lot of shi before meth like alcohol, cigarettes, weed,tramadol and one day I decided to quit all of those and I was doin good but my dad passed away recently and I made him a promise that I would never do those drugs ever again and I intend to keep that promise but my depression got to a point that I would quit college ditch my friends and just spend my day doing nothing. But recently I met a friend I knew in high-school and told him bout my problem and he suggested something knew I never tried before (meth) and offered for me to try it and I did, the euphoria and confidence I gained from it was massive and very pleasant. And it was iv for my first time he helped me shoot and yk bout iv it's a one way ticket to death but I couldn't stop, I started using it more often at the start it would be 2 × a month but it got so bad I am doing it 3 or 2 times a week, don't get me wrong I go to the gym, I keep myself clean, I dress well and you could say I'm fairly handsome and when ever I slam my confidence is through the roof I talk to girls and stand in front of the mirror for about 30 mins when I slam but recently my veins started to hurt and I am not getting the same euphoric feeling I used to get, I haven't slept in 5 days my appetite is gone and I only drink smoothies and my physical state is getting damaged.so I decided to stop doing meth but I have been reading a lot of posts on reddit lately and all of them are saying that they need rehab or some kinda medication but I am not planning to go to rehab or do any pills cuz am trying to stay healthy but the craving is too strong. If someone can give me advice I would appreciate I am in a dark place right now but talking bout it sure does ease the pain alot so pls help me and thank you.