Worst experience of my life. Now what? I feel the need to change my being, but then I realize that no one noticed because none of it happened, and what did, only happened to me. Died, revitalized, murdered, resurrected, lost family, called everyone I don't speak to, gang stalked by Mexican cartel disguised as Christian rehab center team, girl actually traveled a distance to meet me, saved my family and significant others, experienced purgatory, an entire discord server mod team were my "voices", experienced a heart attack, told an officer I committed murder at an international border ( I didn't) then driven to my family to celebrate Christmas after preventing the officer from being taken out by the cartel members attempting to kidnap me, and telepathically spoke to all the hospital staff in the lobby, and ending it with a detox at a Christan based rehab center, make friends, and bounce a week later before deciding to travel states bound for someone who avoids IRL commitments... How do I overcome or beat that? May I prevail such a fluctuation of emotional experiences? Or are my best ice days behind me?