When I smoke meth, the storm in my mind and soul calms, and the waters settle. I feel at peace in a way, as much as that is possible on a heavy stimulant. I feel like I have nothing to be afraid of, whereas on weed I feel very vulnerable and mentally naked so to say. I won't go into detail, but online I have seen some horrific and terrifyingly disturbing things that I genuinely believe have changed me as a person forever. Much of it broke me in a way and turned me into a shell of a person. Usually when I smoke cannabis or any THC product I begin to experience flashbacks and think intensely on what I saw. On meth I feel less devastated by it and more indifferent towards what happend.

For example, "That cartel video was really awful, but the guy in the video did it to himself. After all, he probably did the same to others."

When I smoke weed I feel greatly disturbed and effected by the horrible things I have seen. It bothers me. I don't like it bothering me tho.

Can anyone relate?