Yeah the high is pretty good, but that’s really more like a frenzy. What I like most is the way I feel when it’s all gone, I’ve come down I’ve eaten showered and hydrated. Chain smoking, blasting tunes in my car, dancing…I feel ALIVE. Yeah I probably look like a reanimated corpse, but I’m on top of the world! There’s an aura to everything that’s other worldly. This feeling lasts so much longer than the initial high. The paranoia is gone, food tastes better, music hits so much more emotionally deeper. The only problem is that this stage too is all too fleeting. I know that once I get a couple nights sleep, what goes up must come down. Depression and anhedonia set in, and I know that I have at least a week of sloughing through work, exercising when I don’t feel like it, and being generally disappointed with existence before I can get back to my baseline, which really isn’t all that great. There’s only two options: stay away and keep it like a treat, or keep the party going and compound the inevitable