I did meth the 1st time 4 years ago l. Felt so off, depressed, couldn't get hard for 3 or 4 days after I tried. It scared the shit out of me. (The after effect)

I remember the extreme pleasure it gave me. I tried it again a year later. I then do it like 20 times within the following 3 years. (10 times this year) I'm use to feeling blah and it's like part of my life now.

I got too much responsibilities and I don't want to be a homeless piece of crap and be in and out of jail. I don't want the mental illness most meth heads got. They are all stuck up and think they are smarter than everyone else. They only got energy and happiness while high. I seen so many good friends and family go crazy on the shit.

I should of stayed away but now I know this shit better than coke last 3x longer.

Anyways... I did it like 20 times now and I feel like I lost 25% of my brains power. I feel dull and depressed a lot.

Well I'm hoping to stay away from it for couple years...had my first auditory delusions on it last time I did it. I was up for 2.5 days. I hope that makes me stay away lol.

Good news is I have said no to it like 4 times now in the last month. I'm starting to realize I got to cut out everyone that uses, including family.

Anyways that's my drunkin meth rant.