I tried meth like 3-4 times. Im worrying about i liked too much the effect and feeling guilty. It makes repetitive things fun , it gives me energy to clean the whole house and make me feel smart and motivated but even high i started thinking "what the fuck i am doing, why am i trying a hard drug, what would your family think".

I know 2 people who ruined their lives. One was an accountant who lost his job and girlfriend because the drug. Now he lives in a family house depressed and he depends on a welfare in his 60s. The other one is a 23 year old guy who is crazy and he insults and assaults his mom, sell his thing to buy tina and he has been in and out of many rehabilitation centers, none worked for him. I am happy so i dont smoke for coping but i feel my life has no direction and i am doing wrong things

Currently i am not addicted, and doing only when family goes out and i have home alone or on the early morning. I hide it , but i dont know if it will get worse. December holiday allowed to explain being awake at 3 am and lied im on a diet to explain losing hunger. Luckly i dont felt the urge of redose and face the comedown. But i am feeling less comfortable of using meth, i tweaked on my last dose for smoking too much and not feeling the inicial effects. I also stayed 30 hours awake, and had weird hallucinations. I have a stash almost empty and it will be hopefully my last smoke.