Wish we still lived in a communal society. Pretty heart breaking, the stuff I see on here. Quitting speed is such a bitch. But staying on is a guarantee of years of your life. Always battle with the idea of “is 20 good years better than 40 shitty years” I’ve brought up the argument many times but sober or non users can’t grasp their head around that idea.

My mind wasn’t doing me any favors prior to use, so I figured I’d fuck it harder. Not like I was losing anything.

Wtf are we doing, wtf do we do. Wtf is this shit we call life. As I’m looking at my phone creating this, all seems meaningless, there is no reality. No matter how good or bad it gets, before we know it, it’s gone. Life’s been nothing but a walk through hell with brief moments of good, only leaving me more aware of hell.

The world is violent and vile. Use or be used, and seems only ones who manage embrace one or the other. Nothing seems divine or special. Just animalistic behavior.

Anyways this’ll prolly get deleted, just bitching