Hope everyone's doing good tonight, I'll try to make this short as possible because I know this subs gets these questions a lot but I'm having trouble finding any old posts that put my concerns to rest. So I've done meth a handle of times in the past, never really liked it didn't like being up for days and all the side affects. H and crack were my thing for a few years bla bla fucked my life up went to rehab, got out did it again, back to rehab again, you get it. Got my shit together and I really haven't been doing anything for almost a year besides my suboxone and smoking some bud. Anyway fast forward a bunch of shit happened (insert excuse here) and I got some ice.

So I've been on a little bender for probably 8 days now, i think altogether I've bought 2 grams in that span of time, I still have a decent amount left. Was smoking it at first but quickly realized that this shit is not crack lol and just realized how shitty smoking was when I tried oral roa the other day and now I rlly just do that or hotrail sometimes. I rlly fucked myself up in the beginning bc I was residing way too much smoking and I freaked myself out I don't think I overamped but I already have rlly bad anxiety so Yknow I panicked. But since then I've been alright as far as not overdoing it. I took my first oral dose the other night because I wasn't feeling it anymore from hot rails or snorting, I know a break is needed but I work construction and basically work like almost two weeks on then get like 4 days off, and it's hard work outdoors, long hours. I've just been trying to wait to deal with the comedown/wd on my days off.

I tried an oral dose that night and it was awesome, went to work in the morning and took another oral dose roughly 12 hours after the first. I don't have a mg scale so both were eyeballed but probably around like 50-60mg, both of them. First dose didn't scare me still had the same muscle tightness that bothers me but I make sure I'm hydrated, I eat as much as I can though I know it isn't enough. But when I took the second dose at work, it was a little concerning I wasn't thinking I needed to call 911 or that I was gonna croak or anything but doing manual labor outside I would just get these random sharp pains in what feels like my heart, especially if I'd reach down to pick something up. I would feel I'd have to be very easy moving around too fast or lifting heavy shit. I didn't take any for the rest of the day, was feeling okay but I've still been getting those random pains. I've even smoked a little crack which I haven't in forever but I've still got more than half a g sitting here and hardly interested in it. Going to work on the morning I'm wondering if I do some ice is it gonna be too much? I'm sorry for the length of this, hope everyone has a good one.