Hi! Big time lurker here! I am honestly making this post for myself to become sober, or at least trying to make a step in that direction. This subreddit honestly gave me so much information and laughs and I am so grateful for you guys! But..

I have come to the realization at my big age of 32 that I overalI am bad at doing drugs. No matter how much I try educate myself with harm reduction and practice healthier habits with substances in general.

My poor self control (ADHD) and demons are stronger than me. I will most likely put myself into the dirt alot sooner at the rate I'm going.

Of course I don't want to stop but I have to make the choice. I am fucking up in life right now with work and my personal life. I can't keep up appearances anymore and my substance abuse will eventually blow up in my face with some sort of hard lesson I don't want 😭.

I just want to thank you all again ❤️