I can feel my life slowly dying.

All these drugs to help with all my suffering

But misery she never leaves me & I feel like I’m trapped in my head

Losing my mind, feel like I’m crazy, no one wants to believe me, I’m better off dead

When will I be dead, empty spaces like the inside of my head

My soul feels so lost like a void I just can’t comprehend

I just don’t ever wanna exist again

Why am I living, I didn’t pick this life, it’s so damn empty

But the drugs they put me in a different reality, the life that never existed for me

Altering minds & an opening, something that will always close on me

No drugs and I’m back to the suffering

It shuts me down,

why don’t I just kill myself, feelings pouring out my soul

Take it back, my soul, I just don’t wanna hold

A river full of emotions that I just can’t get ahold

Get a grip I never had one to begin with.

Get your mind straight, how can I, when I never got to chose my existence

No voice, just an outsider, I feel silenced from a life that I never chose

Choices, when do I get one this life gets so damn old, even the drugs don’t work anymore. All this pain life is finally making me hit the floor

Rock bottom I wish I was at the floor so I don’t have to live anymore

One door, it closes, then another ya it opens, for me there locked & dead bolted

With my time the good will always pass, but the bad seems it will never pass.

I’m so glad this will be my last time & it will pass & I will never pass back to life, this is for the last

Looking at these drugs thinking why don’t I just OD?

Prosper & happiness, man i ain’t ever seen that once for pathetic me

Misery & suffering, that’s the only one I see

If I was supposed to be somebody, then all i wanna say is I’m sorry.

I wish life could be so precious, but how can it be, when I’m gone thru all this misery

Nothing good comes out of this or me

Bad always out weighing me, good isn’t even a thing to see

But this life is so damn depressing, I’m tired, won’t you just take me.

May my soul rest in peace whatever that is to me, peace something I have yet to see

I changed the acronym R.I.P, to my rest in pain or piss, that’s gonna be what’s in store for me

Unfortunately, I’m looking at my next choice for death, atleast free will I can chose how I won’t exist or be

Pick up the phone 1 ring away from gone home.

My last ride and day, but this time I got to choose!

Raining heavy, looking so depressing,damn look at worthless me so damn pathetic.

I should have never existed that would have been better for you & me

Eyes raining heavy too now I’m blind I can’t see

Finally back home, the ending is near, now I’m ready to pick & chose. This time I make sure I don’t lose

I wonder will anybody even care, I’ll be forgotten in just a few years. Nothing left to even spair

A thought of the mind, that won’t even exist to share

That’s to good, I’m a worthless soul why should ppl care

Why do I live this life, when I can’t find a purpose or love to even care

They say I’ll find it, but I rather just die in despair

No one would ever even care

One last time I’m doing drugs, gonna party it up

Do all the lighter stuff, saving the best for the end of my movie

Life is like a movie, but without the happy ending

I’ll do with a bad ending & no spoilers for the afterlife, no credits that’s just over kill I don’t need more time for this that’s just the way I feel

Feelings don’t come often I usually force or steal

If hell is real, start up the inferno grill, because I’ll just be burning & screaming in, a fiery lake.

with a soul that was a lost void & never got to feel.

Now I reach over and look at these pills, fentanyl atleast I know you will kill

She never disappoints, but she always gives me chills

Nervousness is just a feel, it to will end when i make this deal

Grim reaper, the dealer, life or death? I pick death, I hate this life I’m living!

Such a pointless feeling

That sheer of death isn’t just a feel, it’s a fear that I will end, with just these last 10 pills I have left in my hand

Eventually turning cold, I was always a lost cold soul

Crush them up one last time

Grab a dollar bc I was struggling with money & my time

Rail it up, sitting back with little time my last though to every have & it’s about time

No narcan in my sight, the drug I hate when I’m ready to die

Happy smile on my face as I die

Knowing the suffering & misery has finally past me by

Afterlife that will be a new time

Maybe I’ll chose, what happens next this time

If afterlife isn’t real, then I won’t exist & neither will no more useless time I have nothing left to steal

Nothing left to fill

Forgotten but maybe I’ll fly

My energy is better free & hopefully feeling more alive

& that’s how I decided to end, my suffering & misery maybe now I’ll be free

Good luck to the others that struggle like me, maybe life will give you a happy ending

Death, that did my part, no more misery!

Now I say the end, no credits life is finally over with the ending

The end, something that will all see

Now we just part ways forever & ever, to never again it’s our calling!

Hope you all enjoyed!