Tonight I left work and I felt fine. But shortly after I started driving home I felt really off and could feel tension in my body. I pulled over and messaged a friend to drive me home. During that time I felt like I couldn’t move at all. Was almost nodding off but awake and stiff. It hurt really bad to walk over to the passenger side of my car. Like the pain was so bad I would start bawling my eyes out. After a few hours I’m feeling fine but still in pain if I get up and move around.

I take 2mg in the am orally. If I have a long work day after 7 hrs I’ll take another 1mg to push off the comedown side effects just to get me to the end of the shift. All stimulants comedown effects are really heavy for me personally and make it hard to finish my day.

I drink minimum 50 oz of water a day. I always put an electrolyte tab in my water bottle as i notice ill drink more water that way. I could eat better i know that. But ive been a lot better about eating food. I make a protein shake thats 40g protein and its 700 calories on top of what i already eat a day just in case. I sleep every night. Minimum 6 hours. Most nights I do get 8 though.

Ive been a lot better about harm reduction and making sure to not neglect myself anymore so confused on why im having an even worse time now. Tonight was honestly kind of scary for me. Not like omg im so high freaking out scary feel but something feels really off but im calm scary.

Update: thanks for everyone questioning my usage. I was reading my scale wrong. I’ve been taking 20 mg not 2mg.