Starting to wake up a bit and noticed that I’ve been basically going to so hard 2-3 days straight that I’ve wasted almost this entire month.

This is kinda giving me the wake up call to call it quits. The casual use every couple months has turned into buying and recklessness honestly set off by the fact I’ve been w/o my so for almost two months. Just got lonely I guess. But it’s gone to me missing important things and doing almost anything I can to get a good rush.

So I’m using this as a reminder to let it go, at least til things are better mentally. Maybe forever. Reading stories about how life ruining this is when I actually have a decent job and friends and life, need to stop before it becomes more than just “fun”.

Sorry for the rant. Just lots to think about.