Started IV a year ago, went hard everyday for months. Got real bad physically and health wise. Managed to pull myself up, and switch to smoking. I don't feel it anymore when j smoke- I'm a daily user, I do escorting so can afford it which actually sucks.

Did 3 shots last week. I've always had shit veins, super thin and always dehydrated, all my life medical staff have struggled to get my veins.

Don't know what I'm doing wrong. It will register, I'll do it pretty slowly because I'm a pussy, no pain. Then I feel my heart rate increase, and a bit of anxiety, no good feeling or feeling horny. Then after this rush, I just feel nothing again- besides a little frustrated.

When I register, it doesn't squirte into syringe like it used to when I started. It very slowly leaks in and fills only a little bit before it stops filling. I'll pull back again, will get a tiny but consistent amount of blood, and inject.

I'm doing 1.5s. I did one shot with 2p last week and definitely felt that, although the site became more swollen than any other missed shot I've had before, and for sure I didn't miss.

Just did a 1.5. Don't feel anything. Registered a tiny amount, pushed and felt no pain. But then I felt absolutely nothing and now there is a tiny tiny bump indicating I missed a little, but I got most.

What tf am I doing wrong? Is it just my veins? Is it getting blocked by my other veins that are fucked? I have small lumps from missed shots all over my arms from 6 months ago- is that the issue?

I'm sick of getting excited for a shot and actually feel high, only to waste up to 2p (which is what I will smoke through a day).

The gear BTW is same stuff I usually get, I can't feel it when I smoke it as with any gear, but I know it's great stuff because the 2p shot i did last week was really f*cking good.

Kind of a rant. Anyway I'll be going in to my local drug support centre for advice. They also do classes and one-on-one's by a nurse on how to properly injecting yourself for harm reduction purposes. I think I've put off going to the centre way too long.

Alright bye. I'm hungry lol