Yeah, I was supposed to quit months ago but I’m still out here blowing clouds….. as of last week my psychosis has gotten so fucking bad. I’m constantly in this state of massive paranoia. Not just your everyday paranoia, I’m talkin death is approaching paranoia. Your life is over paranoia. All the while I continue to get high. Mental fatigue sets in everyday and I still get high. I always feel like I’m being watched, and hunted. It was annoying at first but now it’s just madness. Idk I feel misunderstood even though it’s all in my head. All my choices are contradicted but I realize it ain’t really real. Insecurities and lack of ambition are projected heavily in the shit I keep hearing. Pretty exhausted because it gets worse and worse everyday. I can’t even walk in my apartment without hearing shit. Even as I write this I hear a voice commenting bullshit and I’m usually a very confident well spoken person sober. My voice sucks, my personality sucks, my lack of accountability sucks. I’ve made so many people worry about me and brought sadness to their lives. I am a loser. I am going to stop here. Fuck meth.