Had many partners over the years, and we've always had one rule, especially with my current one. We only use together. Never been an issue with me until a few weeks ago. He's off working all the time and I'm alone, so I was bored one day and tried it, and that's been the past 3 weeks now. I ran out and aquired more without his knowledge, something he would prob end our relationship over.

I don't understand why I did this now after all this time of it never being an issue. I keep thinking I should just flush it and never do this again. I can't really come up with a good reason I'm doing this in the first place either other than maybe sheer boredom and I hate being alone.

Thanks all.