I've been experiencing psychosis for some time. It comes and goes but it's mostly due to sleep deprivation. Not willingly I've had chronic sleep issues my whole life. Stimulants even when dosed carefully just tend to exasperate the issue. I'm basically dysfunctional without them though because I have pretty severe ADHD and essentially lack of motivation.

A new psychiatrist I'm seeing wants to put me on Olazapine. I'm hesitant, but I'm starting to see the effects of psychosis that are subtlely digging into every other aspect of my life.

Sharing too much, saying odd things, talking to myself, auditory hallucinations which has really gotten into my self esteem and paranoia like there's a plot against me even though I know that I'm not that important or that people don't care enough to plot against me or worry about my problems

So I've heard it can completely knock you out even with combined use with strong stimulants, like meth. Have as anyone had experience with this?

Im hesitant cause it damages the same neurotransmitters as meth, and I'm already dopamine deficient as is without neurochemical changes in my brain from drugs. But I'm also heavily prone to psychosis due to having BPD. And no this was all diagnosrd long before I used stimulants or anything at all so although I understand the perspective please don't say quiting drugs will solve everything.

Also anyone with psychotic exoerienced, what affirmations do you use? I always try to remind myself that the second I'm out of eyesight I basically don't exist to other people. But it's been a long few days and the stress has kept me up making me more sleep deprived and psychotic.