Loneliness is such a bitter thing on the comedown off addies. Nearly out and my 2 days bender concludes. However, even though I know it's time to stop, parting is such sweet sorrow. Addie comedown is fast like falling off a cliff. But I will be okay and have felt this emptiness numerous times, it to shall pass. I got some Benzos to crash a little later early this evening.

Need to eat a decent meal, wash up, and get over the fun bender. Thankfully, I am strong and have only taken Adderall XR and just abuse it just once a month until next month for my refill. Once I'm out, I'm out which is a good thing for me. Got things to do and I get nothing accomplished on my benders.

I have resisted Tina with all my might for well over a year, even though I'd love to have her. But I don't think about it and keep trying to move on with my life quality. But only using once a month is just a justification of my addiction of one thing to another. I think in time I will stop abusing it and take it as directed. Don't you think after a few days it gets tiring, boring, empty and lonely? I do and every single time I regret it. I feel sleazy too with all the porn and pictures of nude members on here. But apparently I have not learned a long lesson of my drug history, abuse and addiction.

Wow, I took 30 capsules of Adderall 20mg XR over a 60 hour period! Definitely, still a problem but just glad it's not Tina or I'd go on a 4 day binge easily and get into trouble again like I have in the past. It's been enjoyable chatting with all you good people. I try and be social, friendly, helpful and nice on here as a bit of kindness goes a long way in this community. I've met so many good people on here, most members are civil and friendly. If they're not I block them as I don't have time for pointless hostility. Peace in your life peeps! ☮️