I have antisocial personality disorder and I mostly live my life according to logic. I don’t like spending time with people and when I do, I only seem to notice their flaws. Of course I’m not perfect either but at least I don’t bother them with my moody presence.

BUT

I noticed that when I do A LOT of meth, all I want to do is chat with people, listen to their problems, find solutions, and share some of my life too. I even think I feel empathy. When I am high, all of my social anxiety is gone, I am confident and am proud of myself. I feel deeply connected with people and I find most of them awesome, and it’s such a nice feeling that is the opposite if my usual self.

All my life, I felt like something was missing, and it’s only when I feel meth that I feel complete. I feel like I finally feel human, giving, caring and loving. Thank god i’m still high, but i’ll wake up tomorrow feeling empty and flat again.