Its been close to 24 hours since Ive used. I have been wanting to stop using for a long time but its hard for me. Im a pro addict. I usually come down really hard even after only 12 hrs of not using. (I smoke daily, consume orally a few times.a.week and slam occasionally when my veins cooperate).

This time I dont feel too bad but I'm supposed to start a new job tomorrow and really unsure if I will be able to make it through the day w/o getting high. I really want to quit, but I also really need this job so I must perform well tomorrow. Ugh. I just dont know what to do. Its rare that I ever even go this long w/o using so I wanna use it to my advantage. Starting to feel shitty though so I'll have to decide soon either to go back to sleep and risk not getting up on time or just get high and stay up and.be guaranteed to make it to work. FML.