I’ve said on here, in many comments and messages to you all directly, that I was going to stop. I’ve even said it’d be easy for me. Well, we all know that’s total bullshit for a new user to say. But as of an hour ago it’s all gone and our person isn’t selling anymore for a long time. The events are in the best place they will ever be for a true effort to avoid this damn drug for a long time, and hopefully forever.

It’s very nearly ruined my relationship, made me fear the person I’m with, cost my partner multiple jobs, and made me call out the first week of my new job. I didn’t lose my job, but now they’re going to think I’m flakey, which I am when high. I haven’t had any fun or good times while using, so it’s not even something that I enjoy. I just kept giving into the nag it creates and kept spinning that bowl.

But I want this part of my life to be finished. I want to rebuild all it’s broken and get back to the place I was a year ago. So, wish my boyfriend and I luck in our journey to quit. I hope any of you in a similar place will have the strength to put it down for good. We all have it in us to do it, so let’s fucking do it!

Also, if you’re having the time of your life and living how you want while using, I’m happy for you. I’m not here trying to turn anyone away. You do you! 🫂